Am I the only one experiencing wildly inconsistent enjoyment with this game?

Don't get me wrong, I love the game. I put around 15 hours into the playtest and another 5 into the full release so far. But out of those 20 hours, honestly only 5 or 10 actually felt fun.

The playtest and my first few matches on launch were great. I was getting kills, getting into good firefights, and making solid progress toward medic gear. But the last 3 hours have been straight up miserable. I can't think of a single good thing that happened.

Over the course of a few games, I burned through over $40k just trying to actually reach the combat. Every single life is just a new way to get wiped before I can even play: shredded by an M249 Kodiak on the road, blown up by an AH-6, getting instantly beamed by infantry the second I step out of a vehicle, or just getting killed trying to push into the zone. I went from steadily making progress to running around basically naked with just an A-91.

I don't really care about doing logi runs or building up bases. I just want to pop smokes, drag people to cover, and defib them mid-firefight. Faction stereotypes feel like a meme anyway since I won back-to-back on Lonestar early on, so I usually just fill whatever team has open slots. But lately I'm just getting completely demolished.

It's gotten to the point where I'm wondering if I'm playing the game completely wrong or if it's just not for me. Anyone else hitting a wall like this, or has my luck just been cursed?